Poetry

Partner Soul

By Wallace - 15 March 08

Form One

I wonder why I should bother to care
I look inside me and nothing is there
I want to die but hope remains
I want to live without these invisible chains
that restrain

I used to believe I would find my love
A man to accept me, the only one
So perfect, true, idealized
Finally, I grew up and then I realized
the lie

I am meant to be alone for all time
Fantasizing a touch which is not mine
Stroking his hair, while parted lips
Breathlessly slip into his soft, gentle kiss
with bliss

Oh, heavenly glow when two parts become whole
When hearts combine to find a partner soul
When colors burst into a rainbow of heat
Two heart rhythms sharing a single beat

A vision seductive, maddeningly so
Pushing and pulling my thoughts to and fro
Adrift in a sea of painful needs and wants
Where the man of my dreams beckons and taunts

So, why won't I accept just anyone?
Why am I picky, expecting too much?
I simply want to find this man
My love, my one true companion
my equal

Form Two

I wonder why I should bother to care
I look inside me and nothing is there
I want to die but hope remains
I want to live without restraint

I used to believe I would find my love
Someone to accept me, the only one
So perfect, true, idealized
Until I realized the lie

I will be alone for the rest of time
Fantasizing a touch which is not mine
Stroking soft hair, while parted lips
Breathlessly slip into a kiss

Oh, heavenly glow when two parts become whole
When hearts combine to find a partner soul
When colors burst into a rainbow of heat
Two heart rhythms sharing a single beat

A vision seductive, maddeningly so
Pushing and pulling my thoughts to and fro
Adrift in a sea of painful needs and wants
Where this image from my dreams beckons and taunts

So, why won't I accept just anyone?
Why am I picky, expecting so much?
I simply want to find the one
My love, my true companion, my equal